The Weird And Zany Mind of a Homo Sapien

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Sunday, September 04, 2005
i am a dreamer..

If a flying chameleon ever existed in this world. i would gladly be it. It may sound metaphoric or it may sound the way it is. i don't mind. You are the judge of that.
Then, i could travel anywhere i wanted. Help anyone i feel like helping and experiencing new things.Why is the word i written in capital?
Is the word "i" more important than the word WE? Why can't WE think more about US than about ourselves?
i feel treated like a second class citizen in my own country. Therefore, i don't think i actually belong to any country. Why is it that one is looked at by one's religion, race or nationality and not as a thorough individual?
When i see everyone around me, i see them as an individual that it sometimes hurts me when they start complaining about other people. Aren't WE all living on the same planet?
One thing i know, life is to be enjoyed. i wouldn't want to let some documented printed paper tell me i'm qualified at doing something or some printed paper that a person put value on take over my life.
i enjoy while i can because God wanted to show me the beauty in life and to realize that flaws that are made makes up a perfect person.
i guess, i try not to complain about how the world is. i take a deep breath and accept everything the way it already is.

My rants are but mere thoughts.

And now they reject
The truth when it reaches
Them; but soon shall they
Learn the reality of what
They used to mock at.
(Surah al-An'ām:5)

Curled Up at 01:30 pm by anenan
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Monday, August 29, 2005
Bring it on!!

Prejudgement... What does it bring actually?
Does it tell us the true colours of a person or is it just a way for us to describe a certain person thinking we know that certain person so well.
Do we actually know anyone so well? Do we really know what a certain person is thinking or what is going in their minds?
I don't think so. I keep judgements as far away as I can. I try to accept the person just the way he/she is.But can everybody do this? I know from myself that it can sometimes be tough. Letting go can sometimes be an obstacle. It feels so good just holding on to it that letting go of it hurts so bad.
Are we actually aware of what we do everyday?
Do we know ourselves as well as we think we do?What if we opened a part of us we never tried opening up to, would it really bring us to places we have never been to?
I guess it would, but when it does..How would we take it? Would we take it in and embrace it or will we try to push it as far away as possible from ourselves?

Questions keep popping out from me. A part of me knows the answer but I know there are others who have different perspectives and I love hearing those perspectives.

My rants are but mere thoughts.

Say:"O People of the Book!
Exceed not in your religion
The bounds (of what is proper),
Trespassing beyond the truth,
Nor follow the vain desires
Of people who went wrong
In times gone by-who misled
Many, and strayed (themselves)
From the even Way.
(Surah al-Maidah:77)

Curled Up at 09:40 pm by anenan
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

Why do we have to choose on a certain thing to "SPECIALIZE" in?
Why can't one study everything and learn anything that is to learn?
Maybe one can actually do that. One doesn't need a certificate to prove that one has learnt everything and anything.
Life consists of more than just certificates, schools, colleges and luxuries.When I think of this, it doesn't make me feel so bad that I would finish studying in the field (that I am still unsure of) I'm taking at the "ripe" age of 30. Well, it would actually bother some people. But someone I hold dear to me made me realize that there's more to life than just putting my head behind outlined topics and texts.
I thank this person for making me realize that. (Merci vuü mou, Häsli!!..hehe)
My dream is to be like Avicenna or those people who came up wth a lot of discoveries in different fields. I want to know more about Philosophy, Ethic, Natural Sciences, Nature, Art, Music.
Everything has in some ways connection to the other. We complement each other and so does everything in this world we live in that is called Earth.

My rants are but mere thoughts.

When ye proclaim

Your call to prayer,

They take it (but)

As mockery and sport;

That is because they are

A people without understanding.

(Surah al- Maidah:58)

Curled Up at 06:41 pm by anenan
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
And then comes another..

"Es ist nicht deine Schuld, dass die Welt ist wie ist. Es wäre nur deine Schuld, wenn sie so bleibt"

Life is like a big book of stories that has hardly any ending.
A happily-ever-after ending is just a beginning to another chapter of life. Sometimes we have time and we flip back through it. Sometimes we just go on writing a new story in our lives and burning the pages before, tainting the past pages. Sometimes we keep ourselves remaining in the past chapters scared of making new discoveries, fearing of going off-track.
No matter what, there will always be stories to be told. But right now, my stories are running out.

Maybe it's because I have no idea to where I am heading. I have the feeling like I'm moving but I don't know in which direction I am going. Some call it being lost. But can one be lost and at the same time knowing where the tracks are leading to?

Maybe I am anxious of making a new chapter. I think I'll be needing all the hug I can get to last me through this journey. I know I will never walk alone. I told myself that I will carry the burden of the world even if it hurts. I will cry for the people who cannot cry. I will carry part of the pain that some people go through. And I will come out brave enough and immune enough to anything that comes my way.

I guess I'm starting to realize that I AM actually an idealist. But can't one be an idealist and at the same time be a realist?

My rants are but mere thoughts

O ye who believe!

Take your precautions,

And either go forth in parties

Or go forth all together.

(Surah al-Nisa:71)

Curled Up at 01:26 am by anenan
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Friday, June 17, 2005
Unsere Welt

Sometimes, I think this world is self-consumed. I'm not saying that this is bad neither am I saying that it is good. It is purely just a statement made solely by ME.
This statement is purely for anyone to intreprete it the way one wants to. Everyone has their own way of intrepreting everything. Life, Love, Faith, Beliefs...
The reason behind this statement I make is that everyone has their own dreams of wanting to achieve something. In some ironic way, if a small part of us weren't self-consumed, the world would not have reached up to the standard it is now.
I feel myself as being self-consumed too. And for some reason, I hate myself for that. I feel so selfish and inconsiderate.
No offence, I don't mind others being the way they are. I respect every individual as they are and just sitting by myself feels good. Looking at the people around me and the people that passes by, it just makes me realize how beautiful each individual is with their flaws.
I guess nothing would be perfect if there wasn't any flaws or mistakes. That's what makes us US.

As one of my friend wrote :
"Derjenige, der weiss, dass er nichts weiss, weiss mehr als derjenige, der nicht weiss, dass er nichts weiss"

My rants are but mere thoughts

If We had ordered them

To sacrifice their lives

Or to leave their homes,

Very few of them

Would have done it:

But if they had done

What they were (actually) told,

 It would have been best

For them, and would have gone

Farthest to strengthen their (faith);

And We should then have

Given them from Our Presence

A great reward;

And we should have

Shown them the Straight Way.

(Surah al-Nisa:66-68)

Curled Up at 01:22 am by anenan
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Friday, May 20, 2005
Command & Conquer

I've watched a lot of movies, films, cartoons, animes and theatres that have villains trying to conquer the world and heros or heroins trying to stop them from "conquering" the world.
But hasn't anybody thought about how it would be if the villains conquered the world?
Why imagine the worst? If the villains do conquer the world, they would have to tend to the millions of people on this earth. Why think that we would suffer under a new ruler?

Sometimes, people complain about how bad things are now. We tell ourselves we want to try and make it better, improve the lifestyle and gain peace in this whole big world.
How do we know that the villain would not promise us a better world?

Someone once said, and I quote 'One needs force, until results are seen', unquote. Maybe we've been too pampered. It is time for some action to be done or maybe there are actions being done that has yet to produce results. So, I wait patiently to see the world be a better place for the others.

What if we are actually scared to experience something different, something we don't know  and something that is beyond our understanding? I hope I will see the whole world happy. I don't think I can settle down knowing part of the world is suffering.

At least, these villains are in some ways transparent with their plans. At least, everyone knows what he/she is trying to do.
What DO you really know about you own country's government?

My rants are but mere thoughts

Those who unjustly

Eat up the property

Of orphans, eat up

A Fire into their own

Bodies: they will soon

Be enduring a blazing Fire!

(Surah al-Nisa:10)

Curled Up at 12:10 am by anenan
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
May Everyone Feel Peace

Everyday, in some insignificant way.. There would be some radical change in this planet we live in that most people prefer to call Earth.
Having that first hand impact on a situation always brings a different feeling if one were to recieve it from another person. Eventhough something radical happens,it is up to us to either react to it or ignore it.
As things happen, how we feel, how we think, what we do and what we say is in one way or the other related to that certain point of moment and time. The things that happen either directly or indirectly affects us and evolves oneself... Stronger, weaker, better, worse, vengeful, loving...And it is up to us to decide how one would be affected by it.....
Some ask themselves, how can one be immortal?
In some ways, we are already immortal. Struggling everyday to stay alive and going through each day waking up the next still trying to figure out what life has in store. Living itself makes one immortal. Because, like it or not, in some ways, our lives affects others.

My rants are but mere thoughts

To orphans restore their property

(When they reach their age),

Nor substitute (your) worthless things

For (their) good ones; and devour not

Their substance (by mixing it up)

With your own. For this is

Indeed a great sin.

(Surah al-Nisa:2)

Curled Up at 08:22 pm by anenan
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
How much is all the love in the world actually?

Some find it a stupid thing for me to put others first.
Well, I don't really take it seriously because to do what I do is not easy. It makes the heart ache and I don't advice anyone to do what I'm doing. I let part of the people I love go. In a way, I'll always be there for them to give them a hug, a shoulder to cry on but committing myself entirely to someone is one thing I can't let myself do.
I guess, I've told myself that I'd want to see the whole world in good hands until I really settle down and commit myself entirely to a person.
To all the ones I've been fond of, I kept telling myself maybe there's someone out there that has been waiting for so long to make a move and I'm just in the way or that they'd find the right person one day and when they do, I'll be there to give them a big smile and be happy for that person.
Sometimes it does hurt, but as long as I can see the world happy and help carry all the burden in the world, that makes me ecstatic enough.
When I look at human beings, what I see is only "stickmen". No fat,no thin, no brown, no white, no red, no ugly, no beautiful.
To me, everyone is equal and has the same rights as others. Does one really see the countries' borders when one goes out in space? I wonder...hmmm
I hope I'd stop talking about ME after this...huhuhu

My rants are but mere thoughts

To orphans restore their property

(When they reach their age),

Nor substitute (your) worthless things

For (their) good ones; and devour not

Their substance (by mixing it up)

With your own. For this is

Indeed a great sin.

(Surah al-Nisa:2)

Curled Up at 02:03 pm by anenan
1 thought I was wierd

Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Pushing ourselves

I know it would be a wierd thought because I do the same thing sometimes but isn't it wierd that we pay so much for a piece of clothe that has some kind of brand on it and letting the clothe brand have free advertisement. It's like one is paying for other people's advertisement. I feel like a dumba**. I guess maybe all the clothing labels are laughing at how stupid mankind is to pay a lot just to look good. I mean there was a cosmetic label that's called BU!! But how can you BE YOU when you wear some coloured powder and some hardened liquid on your lips?? Well, no offense, I mean, I know people who wear it and I have no problem with it but don't we affect each other in a way that we don't know?
It's scary not knowing how we've affected all the people around us. Sometimes I REALLY do feel like just curling up like a cat and feeling everything just flow through me and not think about it anymore.

But I still don't get the whole "it's-gotta-be-expensive" part. Well, yeah, I know that it was someones idea or somehing but isn't it enough getting recognition for the 'thing' and being in the newspaper? Must we make others suffer just so that some of us could have a better life?
There's so many things I want to do but I REALLY don't know where to start. I want to make my own boutique, make sure it's sold everywhere at a price evryone could buy it, buy all the pet shops in the world, let all of the animals roam free and at the same time still provide a good home for them.Wait, we're animals too,right?

My rants are but mere thoughts

Behold! In the creation

Of the heavens and the earth,

And the alternation

Of Night and Day–

There are indeed Signs

For men of understanding–

(Surah al-Imran:190)

Curled Up at 06:23 pm by anenan
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
What is REALLY precious?

Why would a female fighting fish want to eat her young ones after painfully( well, i don't know about that) giving birth to them?
I keep on thinking about it and sometimes the answer that I find scares me.The world is beautiful and I can't complain about that but the sorrow,danger,twistedness that is held by the world is also another part that is so heavy that sometimes few can't help but let everything go.
I don't know why but everytime a new living thing comes into the world, no mattera human or an animal, I can't help but cry. They are so pure and beautiful and innocent,having no idea about what is ahead of them. I'm so scared that something bad is going to happen to any of them. I feel like I want to hold them, to keep them in my arm, to hug them until  I've made everything good for them or until nothing would hurt them,to ensure that there's always someone who'll provide warmth.
I cry because nothing is not yet REALLY good for them but then I think, if they didn't go through what I've seen, would they be strong enough to go through anything.Then, I would be clouding a part of what the world is. Maybe there is such a thing about not holding to something too tight or letting it thouroughly go.

*sigh* I hope I won't burden myself with all these thoughts

My rants are but mere thoughts

Think not that those

Who exult in what they

Have brought about, and love

To be praised for what

They have not done–

Think not that they

Can escape the Penalty.

For them is a Penalty

Grievous indeed.

(Surah al-Imran:188)

Curled Up at 09:27 pm by anenan
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  • Pay a VERY BIG debt to my parents
  • Get my own laptop
  • Buy new albums...haven't bought one for a long time..
  • Search for a good book to read...eventhough all books are good, that I know
  • Figure out what I wanna do with my life...hihihi
  • Help everyone and spread love everywhere

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  • Stop war and start understanding
  • Accept everyone's differences and individuality
  • No one is MORE powerful... I repeat, NO ONE
  • EVERYONE is equal.. we always say this but we forget
  • Think more of others than ourselves

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